Is it weird that I feel like blogging about my life seems really lame?
I've been recently addicted to watching Mad Men on Netflix.
Diablo 3 is out this morning, and I've been playing the beginning snippets until I get booted from the server due to high traffic. <3 I suppose that is what I get for being one of millions in love with Blizzard games...
I've been becoming progressively less interested in work and more interested in... school? Something else? I'm thinking it will be good for me to stick it out until I can't stand it anymore. Plus, it is fun to combat my anxious voices that are saying I'll be trapped there for the rest of my life.
I'm starting to feel as though it... really sucks to be a secretary.
Examining that idea:
Mastery of that job would be becoming expert at dedicating your professional life to handling an individual who inevitably makes more money than you, and is forever going to be seen as superior...
I can't handle it.
Especially when there is a boss of mine who throws temper tantrums.
I just feel so... unhappy in that position. I value the job, as it provides me with the opportunity to learn how to function in a position where I am not in charge, but I feel as though I am wasting much of my critical and creative brain. I sure don't feel like some expert legal assistant after working there seven and a half months, but I think I get the gist of the job, and I just don't want to be there forever.
My goal right now is to stick around at least until next April. If things don't change much, I imagine I will stay there until they do. I like the flexibility I have now, and I am not afraid of anyone I work with. I am looking for things to remain static, or maybe get a little bit busier. If I were working 32 hours a week, I'd be satisfied a little more than I am now. My direct boss just doesn't quite seem to have the chops to keep me that busy though... I suppose we'll see if he cranks things up. The boss with the temper tantrums is the guy who really brings in all the work, and he is nearing retirement. If he goes sooner rather than later, I might be looking for new employment sooner rather than later.
I'm sleepy right now, so I'm not really in a good frame of mind to think forward, but I have faith that the world around me will take care of me. Listening to the ground, sometimes you have an easy time hearing things <3 I'm hopeful that my insides will continue to keep me on track, and I am excited to continue to practice listening to them.
This purple over the gray color is really hard to read, just fyi, I was trying to read this from my phone and I had to like squint and hold it really close to my face. And I always thought blogging about my life seemed really stupid too everytime I tried to do it before this. But now I don't.
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